Actual Thoughts

Yeah I know I haven't actually blogged with some real thoughts in awhile, only updates and pictures. I miss blogging - I love writing. Oh and did I mention I'm writing a book? Yeah, that'll be another 15+ years before I finish it. Somehow it's easier to blog than write chapters of a book.

I got to thinking about how much of our lives we actually live for our very own self. I found an old college buddy on Facebook and was looking at how beautiful her pictures were of her and her kid. Then, I read some of her posts about working out for 3+ hours a day, eating disgusting meals, etc, etc. So, yeah, to look that great takes sacrifice. A lot of sacrifice. And planning and dedication. And to me, sadness that certain things have to be sacrificed. I know a lot of people could say that they enjoy working out. Sure. I'm definitely not one of them. But do they enjoy feeling guilty about missing a work out? Or feeling guilty about splurging on a most tasty meal? I just wish there was an in-between where you're not super skinny but you're not obese, just healthy. And all of society liked this in-between.

Then it made me think about how everyone at my job that gets promoted is SUPER fake and annoying but yet they get promoted. I mean, to be that dedicated to fake, you have to practice it pretty much all the time, right? So when are they real? I mean, who are they really? Do they even know? Just a fake person imitating a fake personality. Why do people like that?

I have always had a hard time in life mainly because I don't think before I talk. And while I definitely think that this is a problem and needs to be worked on and controlled better, I also think that some people find it as a breath of fresh air. But at the same time, I am never rewarded for this trait. I am always thrown under the bus but secretly admired for being able to say what I think. I find this extremely frustrating. I am extremely happy with who I am, even with my zillions of faults while others who are constantly questioning what they just said, thought, did because they are afraid to look bad in front of others are applauded for this.Why is it so horrible when I say something that is true but "not nice"? Wouldn't the world be a better place if more people heard the "not nice" version of things? I mean, isn't that true life?

I guess it just drives me nuts because I admire people with the most sense. Common sense is a precious gem to me and not a lot of people have it. But yet, the most moronic people seem to get ahead in life. I guess it's people like me who are always the ones to stir up controversy and change but it would be nice if the people with the most common sense could win a little bit more. If we could see more people at the top that aren't fake. Making decisions that aren't "safe". Making people mad. Telling people not what they want to hear but what they need to hear. I'm sure there's a negative to this somewhere along the way, but I'd like to see someone at least try.   ;)

Michiganders!

This last week my family (excluding Vincent and Tristan) flew up to Detroit, Michigan to see my baby brother, Galen, graduate college. We had a great time although I did miss my little man sooooo very much. We did a lot while we were up there. We went to the Henry Ford Museum and it was super interesting. We had a lot of fun. Then there were the gardens in Ann Arbor. Of course, my family has to be goofy. Then the graduation.

I also got to see an old friend, Kim, while I was there. Of course, I have always adored her kids and sure enough, they lived up to my expectations. I think the best moment of the night was 2 naked little boys with the funny glasses that I bought them on, running around. No, we didn't take a picture. Should have.

Anyway, here are some pics from the trip.

 

Moving

I know that I have not done a blog in over a month but I have been beyond busy. Work has me working overtime every day. School is usually what I do on the weekends since I have absolutely NO time during the week. I'm tired all the time and I lust after sleep. Yeah, it's been bad. Oh and did I mention we have NO friends? I apologize to everyone that I have blown off in the last few months. But really, our house is chaos.

Then, if you can believe, it got worse. We decided to put our house on the market to sell. We need a bigger house. Tristan is getting bigger by the day and I want him to be able to be happy playing in our house with his friends. In order to be sold, we have had to do TONS of things to the house. Paint specific areas, move cluttering furniture to the garage, steam clean all the carpets.....and the list goes on and on. We haven't even started packing and I'm burned out.

All the while we've been working on the house, we have been looking at houses. That was a huge debate between Vincent and I and it seemed that it would have no resolution until we found our dream house. First we went to Savannah but the more I visited, the more I felt like I was on the set of Pleasantville.  It became a little creepy so we thought it might be best to find a house that was not like every house in the neighborhood. We found a housing community that has a lot to offer and fell in love with our dream house. We are going to build it. It's in Little Elm. We haven't started building yet but once we get further along with selling our house, we will start building. I stole some pictures from the website to give you a sneak peek even though they don't do the house justice at all. I LOVE it. It's a beautiful home. Plus we will be closer to family and friends. I can't wait. These pictures keep me going because I am going through my own personal hell with trying to balance everyday life with selling a home. Goo.

 Formal Dining

 Kitchen

 Family Room

 Master Bedroom