Uggghhhh

This is the only phrase that sums me up right now.......ugh. I am so uncomfortable right now that I really do believe that I won't be able to last till my due date. I know that I will but it really is the most miserable I've ever been. I can't sit, stand, or lay and find a comfortable position in anything. There is no such thing as a comfortable position. I don't remember being this uncomfortable with Tristan. This baby is constantly kicking. So much so that I am convinced he is bruising me. It's true. There are areas of my belly that are sore and I'm convinced that they are bruised areas. My doctor does say that it's possible so I'm convinced that it's what's happened to me. Either way, the baby has no concept of night and day. Or he's nocturnal. He wakes me up with kicking that won't stop. During the day he sleeps for a few hours in the morning and a few hours in the afternoon but the rest of the time it's kicking. And I'm pretty sure that this baby is all bones and no fat. At least that's what it feels like when he kicks and/or moves. It hurts. So, to sum up, everything hurts. I am super busy right now but it still isn't enough to keep me distracted from the pain. Ugh.

I know that I haven't blogged in awhile because I have absolutely no time but I missed it. I love writing and it also keeps everyone updated so it's nice when I get to do it. It's just the time and my lack of it. Right now I am struggling with staying focused with school. It's really hard to stay sitting in class for the full 3 and 1/2 hours so I usually end up leaving early. I am making the grades that I want to make so I should do just fine but it's just getting to the end without giving up completely. In fact, my scheduled C-section is on the day of my last final exam so I actually have to move my final exam because I sure as heck am not postponing my C-section.

Tristan has become a demon and Vincent and I are convinced it's because he knows the baby is coming. We've heard from friends with kids that this happens with the oldest. My mom said that I did the same thing. But it's terrible. If you take your eyes off of him for a second he has an entire room destroyed. He walks into a room and just starts looking for things he can break, pour out, rub on the wall, etc. On top of that he only wants me to hold him and throws a fit if I don't. Yeah, he doesn't care if my back and belly are in pain. I usually won't pick him up because I just can't at this point. So I am looking forward to the baby coming because I think after Tristan gets used to him, he'll start behaving again.

My brother Nate and his wife Nicole were living in Charleston, SC. They had a baby back in August and then my brother got orders that he was going to be stationed in California (in the Air Force). Since they had to drive their cars to California they just planned on stopping by Texas instead of us going out there to visit them and the new baby. The weekend before last they came into town for a few days and we finally got to meet little baby Ethan. Adorable. Tristan definitely had some issues with not being the center of attention and we had to watch his every move because he tried several times to punch Ethan. But after he got used to him, he was fine. But we had a great time with my brother and Nicole and Ethan. It stinks that they have to live in California. The majority of the family lives here so it would be nice to have the cousins live near each other. Oh well.

We are also in the process of building a 3rd bedroom in our house. So, on top of being extremely uncomfortable, I have to live with a mess of a house even though I'm nesting right now and it hurts me to see a mess. But I just have to tell myself that very soon it will all be done and we will be 1 step closer to selling this house. It feels like every day this house gets a little bit more smaller. Ugh.

Other than that nothing else is going on. Just counting down the days till this baby is here.That and school being done. Those 2 things behind me will make me a much better person. Until then, expect scarce blogs and even scarcer social calendar.

Here are some pics from Ethan's visit: